I AM

What a weariness it is worrying about your life, what you shall eat or drink or your body what will you wear.  Weariness, weariness when you attempt to apply logic and human reasoning to  My instructions, My directions, to try to make them fit into some preconceived mindset or box that I cannot now or ever fit in. I am an infinite without limits God that cannot be comprehended within the limitations of human reasoning much less the direction I lead you in to bring you to your future and destiny in Me which was prepared even before I laid the foundations of the world and earth on which you live. You must be consumed with one thing only, and that is My presence, for in the Presence of the Holy One is fullness of joy and My joy is your strength to move forward into the unknown to which I have called you.  Deep calls unto deep, but you do not go out into nothing or nowhere but into a deeper measure of Me, for I am in the depths, not the shallow waters of the shore.  Follow the sound of My voice, for there is the liberty, the freedom, the fulfillment, the satisfaction of all you long for and search for. For where My voice emanates from is My presence and within My presence, My being, are you whole in Me who brought you forth for Myself and call you forth unto Me, to be with me in the unknown.  Unknown to you yet known in Me and known to Me.  Trust Me, all is well and will be well as you continue to follow the sound that you hear.  Don't allow the doubt or fear of what you don't understand drown or deafen the sound of My voice.  You must turn away from anything and everything that dulls the sound of My voice, for where My voice is I AM, and where I AM is the presence of all that ever was or is or will be, and you will lack nothing in Me for I AM he who fills all things, past present, future.  I do not lead you to a place of lack but abundance.  All you must do is ask.  Do not labor for that which cannot satisfy, but that which is eternal and enduring forever.

Holy Fire

I see Jesus walking through masses of people robed in His kingly garments and as he walks he picks this person then that person.  Outwardly they do not look like we expect. These are not being chosen by the standards of man but by what He sees in their hearts. As their eyes meet there is a spark caused by the meeting of the fire of desire that is in their hearts for each other. Throngs and throngs of people are pressing in, cheering, screaming, and applauding.  Sadly, many are not chosen.  Those who are desiring for the praise of man to be picked by the King, those who were not willing to die to themselves, those not willing to die to the praise and recognition of man for the sake of Jesus’ call upon them, not willing to die to their reputation among the religious, those not willing to be seen in the eyes of man as foolish. 

He chose those whose hunger and desire for Him superseded their desire and affection for anyone or anything else. Those who loved not their lives unto death, these are the ones He is choosing. Even those that are looked upon with disdain and contempt by people who call themselves by his Name, yet not chosen because they were not willing to leave the familiar, comfortable, safe place of their religious activity to go away and be with Him.  As He looks upon the multitude of people His eyes are searching their eyes for Himself, for His fire, searching for His desire for those who have shared in the fellowship of His suffering.  Those with holy fire and not strange fire upon the altar of their hearts. These are desired by the heart of The King. 

HOLY FIRE

Holy fire of pure desire come sit upon our hearts.

We want Your presence to come and rest and not depart

our gates and ancient doors we lift up and open wide

that you the King of Glory would come in and dwell inside

Give us hands that are clean and make our hearts pure

that we may ascend the hill of the Lord

we want to stand in the Holy place

to behold you in your beauty

Lord we come and seek Your face

Light your fire of pure desire upon the alter of our hearts

Holy fire of desire for you the King, the Lord of Hosts

that many waters cannot quench nor floods could drown it out

Consume, consume, consume

Till all that is left is you

You’re the Lord strong and mighty

You are the Lord of Hosts

You are the King of Glory

Who fights to win our hearts

Our gates and ancient doors

we lift up and open wide

so you the King of Glory

would prepare us to be your Bride

Wave Of Glory

The day started just like any other with me getting my coffee and heading upstairs with the angst in my heart of not knowing if He would come or not.  It was my exercise day and I felt good about that.  As I started I began to pray in the Spirit as I usually do then I felt a twinge of disappointment come up in me as I thought about my dreams of dancing and marriage and ministry but I just laid them at the feet of Jesus and told him if they never come to pass it was O.K. as long as I had Him.  I have to have Him I can’t live without Him.  But as I was talking to Him feeling Him draw near to me I felt this huge lump in the pit of my stomach as I had so many times lately and I thought what is this, why do I keep feeling this.  Almost before I heard His words, I knew the answer as He said, you’re pregnant.  I knew without a doubt that was exactly what I was feeling, being pregnant with something in the spirit. I continued to pray and worship and shortly after that I saw in the spirit a huge tidal wave coming from the ends of the earth.  It was like the earth was suspended and at the horizon was the wave towering over it.  I knew as I was looking it wasn’t just any tidal wave but was a giant wave of the spirit that is gaining momentum as the people of God are praying and interceding for revival.  I felt briefly that maybe this was the burden I had been feeling for quite sometime.  As I continued to look I also saw the most softly sunlit morning that colored everything with a coral glow and the coolness in the air one feels right before the seasons change. 

As I was thinking about the tidal wave in the vision the Lord spoke these words to me....

Open up your spirit eyes so that you may see. Do not merely see and hear what is going in the world around you, see and hear what is going on in the spirit.  I will not leave my people unprepared, unprotected and unprovided for.  But why would you reach to take hold of something you do not know is there? It is not that it isn’t there but that you do not see it.  Do not let your doubt or unbelief keep you from receiving that which I have already prepared for you.  Do not be like the people of Israel who grumbled and complained wondering if the Lord was among them or not.  And why did they wonder?  Was it not because I came in a way they did not expect.  It wasn’t that I was not there. They had their thirst quenched by the water from the rock which was always with them for it was following them and that rock was Christ yet they did not perceive the provision for it came not in the way they expected.   Even so you must learn that I may not always come in the way you expect. I have promised through my covenant to meet your needs, I have not promised to meet them the way you think I should. I have ways I will provide for you in the days ahead you do not even know or conceive of. For no eye has seen no ear has heard no mind has conceived the things which I have prepared for them that love me, but I have revealed it unto you by my spirit.  So you must learn to see with the eyes of your spirit that you may receive what I have freely given.

At the time I had this vision and was given this word I had no idea of what was coming financially as the banking business dried up more and more following the elections of 2008.  The word tells us in Romans that faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God.  The original language uses the word "rhema" for "word" which means a spoken word.  Because of receiving this word from the Lord, by faith I lived in a house without cost for six years despite all the attempts of the enemy to get me to vacate.  The time did come for me to move on as the Lord spoke yet again and said, "you have camped long enough at this mountain".  Sometimes a mountain represents an obstacle, but it also at times represents a move of God, which in this case is what He was referring to concerning me.
God takes us through wilderness times in order to humble us and to teach us that we do not live by bread only (having our physical needs met) but by the proceeding word of the Lord.  I cant hardly imagine living my life without Him speaking to me and instructing me in the way I should go.